Kassandra & I

Budding Writer...

2006-09-13T08:49:00.000+08:00

A touching subject to write about...

Morning Dew

2006-09-12T12:56:00.000+08:00

Another early morning shot..

Morning Print

2006-09-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

Taken in Teluk Batik, Lumut...7am

Raining Fire

2006-06-01T10:13:00.000+08:00

Will be back...soon

2006-05-30T12:40:00.000+08:00

Currently in hibernation period...WILL BE BACK SOON!

Kuala Kangsar Hospital

2006-05-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

Been busy last week...this one is fresly taken and heavily edited...

Mau gaduh ka??!

2006-05-04T14:04:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/60sec]- Muka garang lepas nangis....

Trigger Happy

2006-05-02T09:12:00.000+08:00

In my own world

2006-04-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

The best part about being a kid is that they have the privilage to ingone the rest of the world and it's problems..

Untitled

2006-04-25T14:01:00.001+08:00

Untitled

2006-04-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

Valerie's letter

2006-04-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

I don't know who you are. Please believe. There is no way I can convince you that this is not one of their tricks. But I don't care. I am me, and I don't know who you are, but I love you.

I have a pencil. A little one they did not find. I am a women. I hid it inside me. Perhaps I won't be able to write again, so this is a long letter about my life. It is the only autobiography I have ever written and oh God I'm writing it on toilet paper.

I was born in Nottingham in 1957, and it rained a lot. I passed my eleven plus and went to girl's Grammar. I wanted to be an actress.

I met my first girlfriend at school. Her name was Sara. She was fourteen and I was fifteen but we were both in Miss. Watson's class. Her wrists. Her wrists were beautiful. I sat in biology class, staring at the picket rabbit foetus in its jar, listening while Mr. Hird said it was an adolescent phase that people outgrew. Sara did. I didn't.

In 1976 I stopped pretending and took a girl called Christine home to meet my parents. A week later I enrolled at drama college. My mother said I broke her heart.

But it was my integrity that was important. Is that so selfish? It sells for so little, but it's all we have left in this place. It is the very last inch of us. But within that inch we are free.

London. I was happy in London. In 1981 I played Dandini in Cinderella. My first rep work. The world was strange and rustling and busy, with invisible crowds behind the hot lights and all that breathless glamour. It was exciting and it was lonely. At nights I'd go to the Crew-Ins or one of the other clubs. But I was stand-offish and didn't mix easily. I saw a lot of the scene, but I never felt comfortable there. So many of them just wanted to be gay. It was their life, their ambition. And I wanted more than that.

Work improved. I got small film roles, then bigger ones. In 1986 I starred in "The Salt Flats." It pulled in the awards but not the crowds. I met Ruth while working on that. We loved each other. We lived together and on Valentine's Day she sent me roses and oh God, we had so much. Those were the best three years of my life.

In 1988 there was the war, and after that there were no more roses. Not for anybody.

In 1992 they started rounding up the gays. They took Ruth while she was out looking for food. Why are they so frightened of us? They burned her with cigarette ends and made her give them my name. She signed a statement saying I'd seduced her. I didn't blame her. God, I loved her. I didn't blame her.

But she did. She killed herself in her cell. She couldn't live with betraying me, with giving up that last inch. Oh Ruth. . . .

They came for me. They told me that all of my films would be burned. They shaved off my hair and held my head down a toilet bowl and told jokes about lesbians. They brought me here and gave me drugs. I can't feel my tongue anymore. I can't speak.

The other gay women here, Rita, died two weeks ago. I imagine I'll die quite soon. It's strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and I apologized to nobody.

I shall die here. Every last inch of me shall perish. Except one.

An inch. It's small and it's fragile and it's the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it, or sell it, or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.

I don't know who you are. Or whether you're a man or a woman. I may never see you or cry with you or get drunk with you. But I love you. I hope that you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better, and that one day people have roses again. I wish I could kiss you.

Valerie

X

From V for Vendetta by Alan Moore

Certain shades of green

2006-04-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

[F/5.2;1/500sec]- Taken during my morning stroll to the river...

Are you lost Joe?

2006-04-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8;1/5sec]- This shot was taken while sending Sue's bro to Educamp in Tronoh...Joe here stood quite a while near the stairs looking lost...well maybe he's waiting for a friend...

Peek a boo

2006-04-18T12:46:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8;1/125sec]- One of the shots in Pasar Ahad, KK...

Malu-malu kucing

2006-04-17T08:11:00.000+08:00

[F/4;1/200 sec]- This fella keep staring at the fish...am not sure if he had his breakfast or not...

Dome

2006-04-14T09:31:00.000+08:00

[F/8;1/30sec]- I bet everyone knows where this shot was taken at...actually it's an old shot, I posted it in my previous photoblog. It's still the same shot just that I edited some part of it in this one...

Waterlily

2006-04-13T08:09:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/60sec]- One of my fav shot, you can almost see the depth of the lake in it...

Fisherman II

2006-04-10T08:12:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/125sec]- Scratch scratch??

Girl From TV

2006-04-07T08:45:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/30sec]- I think it's Avril Lavigne (is that the right spelling?) Not really a big fan but it's a fun experiment...

The Fisherman

2006-04-06T08:25:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/100sec]- Fisherman in Tasik Raban

Road Runner

2006-04-05T08:20:00.000+08:00

[F/8; 1/8sec]- Not as sharp as I wanted it to be but panning shot is a difficult task...

Hi, how're you mate?

2006-04-04T09:06:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/80sec]- I was lucky to be able to take this shot, and good lighting really did the trick...

Legs

2006-04-03T08:00:00.000+08:00

[f/5.2; 1/160sec]- Endless legs...they seem to go all the way up...

Sunny Night

2006-03-31T08:19:00.000+08:00

[F/8; 1sec] - Taken on Merdeka night 2005

Happy couple

2006-03-30T08:21:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8 ; 1/125sec] - On a sandy beach of Pangkor Island

Palace

2006-03-29T15:05:00.000+08:00

[ F/4; 1/320 sec ] - Old palace; not a single nail used in building it...

Mona Lisa

2006-03-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8, 1/100 sec] - Mona Lisa on a wall...

Firemen

2006-03-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

[F/2.8; 1/4 sec]- Fire spitting/juggling men...